The other day I was thinking about cancelling my gym membership.
In yet another ‘failed’ attempt to keep my fitness going in my life I felt trapped, confined, and hopelessly addicted to the high of starting a new fitness regime for it to crumble. It was crumbling because I didn’t have it in my heart.
Actually, I had it in my heart like I always have: as a way to lose weight.
There IS is a REMARKABLE difference between the idea of working out to tone, bring strength, and for the endorphins VS to lose weight. It’s exactly the same as eating for health VS eating to lose weight. (Tina touched on this here)
I called my friend. “I think I am going to cancel my membership to the gym. I hate it. Actually, I think I have a phobia of gyms, because they make me feel trapped into the whole weight loss routine and I just want to rebel.”
“Maybe you should find something you want to do or realise it’s to bring health and forget about the weight loss and just focus on strength building.”
I switched my mind-set. I let myself feel the feelings of entrapment for a couple of days then I just decided to go and do a circuit workout that would bring about strength. I didn’t look at calories, I didn’t do anything except pack the weight on those circuits and smash it out.
How could you not feel good?
Last night I didn’t feel like sitting around anymore, I just told Andrew I was going for a quick late night walk. About 5 minutes into it I felt like running. Instead of timing my run, the distance I had to run or any other rules I told myself “run as far as you want.”
It was amazing. I don’t even know how long it took. Or calories I burnt. Or points I could eat afterwards. I just simply ran because I wanted to.
Exercise for me is exactly like dieting..except that I procrastinate on it. It’s exactly like eating for me, in that when you take away the rules you find your stride, you find your strength and surprisingly enough you enjoy it a whole lot more than you thought you would.
I know that people do wonder “how do you get to a place where you find peace?”. I think it’s a committment to the releasing of the chains, restrictive thinking, the guilt, shoulds, the needs. It’s a desire to listen to what you actually want to do and doing it. If I feel like strength, if I feel like cardio, if I feel like yoga, if I feel like Zumba..it’s where I am going to be.
Let go, and move your body for health!