I have never really dreamed about my life.
is that weird?
The whole notion of a vision/dream board is something that I had never really gotten into. I couldn’t see myself dreaming about anything other than weight or career. It’s the truth. I didn’t have dreams. Even with my new career as a nurse, I’m not exactly sure what I’m dreaming of…but at least it’s not dreaming of being skinny. Even the word skinny is probably not fair, perhaps it’s just dreaming of being a different weight than I am now.
Then I met Andrew.
And he has catapulted my life into a world of dreaming and ideas and thoughts and future plans that I had never ever dreamt of. I have planned ahead, predicted a bit of where out relationship might lead…I’ve let myself dream happy, beautiful pictures of us together.
Yesterday I dreamed a little about maybe just, perhaps, maybe one day WAY down the line of hopping into a dress and getting hitched. I texted an idea to a close friend and her response surprised me.
I was totally taken back. AWFUL? AWFUL to dream?
you’re putting way too much pressure on yourself and the relationship you need to live in the moment.
Again, I disagreed with her.
I DO think that you can get caught up in the future and make your relationship, your life, your weight goals either the only focus or the unattainable focus of anything. I do think you can get lost in your dreams, if that’s all your living in.
I also think that you can live so crappily in the present and have nothing to look forward to, to dream about, to aim for.
I’ve done that for a long time. That’s how I’ve lived almost 28 years of my life. Dreaming about a future goal that meant nothing to me, whilst trying to stay present in a life I didn’t know how to stay present in.
It was an interesting conversation that ironically sparked something in me that hasn’t been sparked in a long time..dreaming. I have NO idea where I want to go and/or what I want to do. How to dream and aim for MYSELF outside of weight, food issues. But I’m excited.
I believe that everyone has the right to dream. Not to live in dreams for their whole existence, but to wholeheardtly let themselves dream is where change, beauty, grace and LIFE happen.
I’m off to make a pinterest dream board. It’s not gonna be awful, I promise.
what are some of your dreams? has anyone told you that your dreams to silly? do you have a dream board?